A Letter to Ty ....

I wanted to sit down and take some time to get some thoughts out of my head and I thought the best way to do that is to write this letter. So here goes ....

My Dearest Son Ty,

Mommy misses you so much. I can't believe that it's been 3 1/2 months since I held you in my arms. Even though that was a very painful time for me I would go back to that day just to hold you again. I made a scrapbook about you. I look at it at least once a week. I look at the pictures we have of you, the story of my pregnancy with you, and all the wonderful cards we got. I would be 33 weeks and 5 days into my pregnancy with you. You would've been born in 6 weeks if things didn't happen the way they did. You have forever changed my life son. I just wish that you would've changed my life in a different way. I know God has a plan for you. For me. For your daddy. At times it is hard to accept his plan, but at times that is what keeps me going. Believing in him. Believing in his plan for my life. Before you came along Ty, I kind of let myself just exsist. Now I am living my life better and taking steps to overcome the bad habits I acquired over the years. I'm trying to enjoy life more and do what I want to be doing. It makes me sad that you aren't here to be a part of mommy and daddy's lives. It makes me sad that you will never get to know your great grandma, your grandparents and aunts and uncles and cousins. I know that you would've blended in beautifully!


I love you with all my heart Ty! I can't wait to hold you in heaven but until then you keep Grandpa and Grandma Carlson and Grandpa and Grandma Hoffer company.


Love Mommy.


P.S. When we brought you home I bought you these balloons so that everyone who came to be with us that night could all write something to you and we were going to send them up to heaven. Well just like you they left this earth a little too early and no one got to write on them. Mommy wants everyone who reads this blog to write a message to Ty and leave it in the comments (even if you read my blog and I don't know you). Ty would love to hear what you would've said to him had he or the balloons not left this earth so soon.

Ty is Home.

Planting Ty's Garden

Wow I can't believe I haven't posted on here in nearly a month. I've been so busy lately with the new job and trying to get back into a routine that time has just flown by. I am still loving the job. So glad I made the decision to change jobs.


So anyway I've been meaning to post pictures of when we planted Ty's memorial garden. Greg's aunts Doris, Joan, and Shirley, along with his mom Sandy, and his cousin Debbie all came over the Saturday of Memorial Weekend and planted flowers in his garden. The flowers they planted came from their gardens along with a couple my mother in law bought and a few from my friend Jeanine's flower garden. It turned out wonderfully and I've added a few perennials and annuals that I bought. I really need to get outside and take some pictures of how its coming along now.

On Memorial Day Greg and I planted a tree for Ty. I haven't taken a picture of that yet but when I get around to taking the garden pictures I will take a picture of the tree. It's been rainy here the last couple of days and I don't want to get my camera wet.

We also set a date for Ty's burial. It will be this Friday June 12th at 7:00pm. I am looking forward to bringing him home at laying him to rest but I am dreading how I will feel.